The brilliant tax attorney on Boston Legal who will never make partner because he’s too weird, and I are very different. I’m more like Alan Shore, the incomparable James Spader, who also seems to suffer from a Shadow Aspergers Syndrome. Did understand the tax attorneys rage when he held a knife to Candice Bergen’s character.
Also understood Alan Shore’s championing him, and then representing him. I’m usually the girl version of Alan Shore; sometimes the tax attorney, and just as often, Candice Bergen. It’s not easy being so complicated, and interesting as therapists like to call me.
Though I am a charm school dropout, I mastered the art of social graces many a moon ago. All my jobs called for an extremely social person who could interview, assess, and make tough decisions in a millisecond.
My life has been easy for somebody with Aspergers. Even before I knew the name, I understood how to overcome most things. Burnt out quickly though. My father who wasn’t quick with compliments said that I was the hardest worker he knew; that for every hour somebody else worked I worked two, so I earned extra time off. My father was a CPA but his logic escaped me at times. He always said that everybody listened to him but the three women in his life. I said that was because we knew him.
Think my parents would understand why writing a memoir is so important to me. They believed me to be both brilliant and beautiful, and had to be consulted before any major decision was made; by the time I was in my 30′s before any decision whatsoever was made
The Aspergers hadn’t manifested until I hit puberty, and who knows what is normal in a pubescent then adolscent girl, with a high IQ, and a sensitive soul?
My father thought that I was shy. Wasn’t able to explain that it was something other than shyness, because I didn’t know how to put it into words.
I’m exhausted. Broke down and took a pain killer before, for the first time all day, and was able to eat something other than Breyer’s low carb, splenda, creamy frozen yougurt. Hate the way I feel the next day after taking pain killers so I resist them; but sometimes….
Spent and exhausted from revealing so much. So need to chill for awhile; with some Breyers vanilla frozen yogurt, and will try not to obssess over how much I have revealed.
Take care of yourself, Pia… Breyers always seems to make one feel better…
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* hugs * pia.
PS: Know exactly why you don’t like painkillers. Hope you start feeling better soon.
Your family sounds lovely… glad you had compassionate family written into your destiny… Hope you are feeling better dear Pia…
For some reason, I can see Candice Bergen portraying you in a film based on your book.
I hear you on the painkillers…they’re great to have around when you need them but you definately pay for it.
Hang in there, Pia!
You bring your father alive in your writings. That’s something. Makes me wish I could have met him.
Ah ha! Another Boston Legal fan! What a brilliant show. Though I should’ve known with your affinity for James Spader you’d be a fan.
Alan Shore is tailor made for you Pia, all obvious else aside, his extreme passion for similar issues.
I try to be Alan Shore whenever I can.
Hope you feel better