Courting DestinyPia Savage

Music to lose money and have a breakdown to

§ July 10th, 2008 § Filed under music § No Comments

First–Obama I’m voting for you but with a bit less excitement. Now that Hillary has nothing to lose she voted against FISA. I understand you have to satisfy everybody, and my life’s an open book but still…

The title?

Personally I feel that I’m just getting started, and am very psyched by the future but Bush finally admitted that we’re in crisis–guess it’s been pointed out to him that the tax breaks that were going to be his legacy haven’t worked. I do think they will be part of his legacy along with WMD’s and so much else. Nothing positive.

Back to me: This is both a great and horrible time for moi. Last year I found out about NLD. It took me a year to process the info. Yes I felt the shock of recognition; knowledge may be power but if there’s no proper treatment….I won’t be part of any clinical trials unless I’m paid well to be in it or to write about it.

I was in my 20’s during the 70’s. I had a great life but it could have been a life lived to its fullest potential. I feel sad that it wasn’t though it was full. Many people with NLD become lost to depression or suicide. Depression never stopped me–for a day or two at a time but I’m not bipolar and do have some measure of control over it. I was passively suicidal–pot and cigarettes. I will always remember pot with awe as it served to “normalize” me, and well only gave my three cigarettes a day up four months ago and go through incredible cravings. Last night people were smoking in the courtyard. It took everything I had not to go out and just as I was losing all willpower, massive tstorms began. It was a wonderful lightening show.

I learn best by writing. It’s surprising for people when they see my researched work as it’s perfectly linear, and gets to the gist quickly. I can synthesise knowledge and words in almost any profession and make it understandable to the lay person. I can even rewrite instructions so they’re understandable I can’t transfer the knowledge in my brain to the physical as I can’t with music and so many other things.

I’m just beginning to truly process it and hope to write a book in the form of a memoir as I have led an interesting life. I do bore myself but when I look at my life as seen through the NLD lens I begin to understand so many things that once weren’t comprehendable.

In the past two years my posts have become shorter and writing fiction has helped that. The more I understand the fewer words I need.
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My friend Myrna (she picked that name) has been going you tube crazy. She has great taste.

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