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I feel like sheet. I relaxed and was allowing myself to truly enjoy my life. I’m sure I guess this will be straightened out but I have visions of me in prison stripes. Not pleasant. I always feel like apologizing for my blogging as if I write horribly and have nothing interesting to say. Good things are happening in my life or would have been if I didn’t have to worry about giving my soul, and all my worldly goods, to the IRS.

Blogging is such a minute part but it’s become a part of my life and I can’t seem to shake it. I enjoyed knowing that people actually read this blog. Sometimes like now I too need comments because I’m going bald–and have more hair on my head than anybody I know. (Didn’t take this out as Doug’s comment wouldn’t make sense.)

Forgive this self-indulgence. My accountant never sent it in as it was lacking one figure and it was tax season. He told me he was going to guestimate and send it. I know the IRS isn’t going to come for me etc etc but I needed to know that it was a mistake on the IRS’s end.

I had a perfect weekend and was too exhausted last night to get my mail. Should have waited until Monday. If you read Courting with any regularity you know that I received a notice from the IRS in February as I was preparing to move

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I deleted the rest of this post because it was sad and self-indulgent and I kind of resent feeling that other people can be as self-indulgent in their blogs as they want to be. But I have a weird gallows sense of humor that doesn’t always translate well on paper.
I wish all the work I had done for my audit hadn’t been lost in the mail or lost in the IRS and I hope and know it will be straightened out.

I’m really sad and feel horribly sick because they think I never responded when I spent a month getting the information and it wasn’t easy. A lot was the IRS’s problem–they asked for things under names that weren’t on 1099′s–they didn’t cross reference my payments with my 1099′s. Many items had so little information on them my accountant and any person in a brokerage house had no idea what they were asking for.

Some things were my fault and I always intended to pay what I owed. A brokerage house that I do business with was taken over by another in mid year and I never got the first’s 1099. As I was renovating my apartment to move and had no space to organize stuff I didn’t realize I never got it and thought it was all on the company that took over the new one’s.

This notice was for 07–before I lost much money. So if I have to pay what they’re asking it’s–I can’t even imagine. I can imagine being in jail wearing prison stripes. I can imagine paying the rest of my life for some stupid mistakes, for my accountant not sending or them not receiving the info and letter explaining everything.

I was so happy. There are some amazing things about to happen in my life. But I need money…..

I felt so diminished when I got this notice and then I thought of the Madoff’s and people of his/her ilk who couldn’t give two shits and she’s not being charged with anything. I thought of all the people I know who brag about not having paid taxes for two or more years as if that’s something to be proud of when I think taxes keeps this country going–but you should pay as little as you legally can.

My dad was a CPA and getting this letter this weekend brought the hurt I never let myself feel after his death because my mother was frail to the forefront and I missed him like I never did before. And I missed the type of CPA he was. He would gladly take a call from somebody he might have inadvertently screwed–or maybe the letter is in IRS hell–but he would have accepted as his problem more than mine because he sent out the information and thus would have been responsible for its arriving at the IRS

I hope I have that type of accountant. I feel sick. I’m ready to turn myself in. I had to count the zero’s in the notice three times for it to sink in. If I did owe that amount of money I would have nothing left–and I don’t think a job at Wal Mart would cover my expenses let alone start to recoup the money. If I did owe it I would pay it but I don’t owe it. I can’t believe how sloppy the IRS notice was.

Do they have email in prison? Blogging? Twitter? Facebook? Will anyone of you write me? Visit me with a saw in a cake (ha ha). I know I’m totally exagarating but I need to get this out.

I was becoming such a calm happy person. i have always said simplifying my life is the single most complicated thing I have ever done and I keep getting more and more proof of that

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7 Responses to “Just when I think it's safe ….”

  1. June 22nd, 2009 at 08:27 | #1

    Tax lawyer in Myrtle Beach.

    Don’t panic, get help.

  2. June 22nd, 2009 at 09:53 | #2

    I’m so sorry, Pia. Can only imagine how stressful this situation is. Not to mention frustrating as you thought you had it all taken care of. I thought the IRS was supposed to have gone through a whole kinder and gentler makeover a few years back. Hopefully, on Monday you can talk to an actual person (or something close) and get this straightened out.

    Otherwise, if you need help with your date-an-inmate.com profile, I could probably offer some insight as I’ve done a bit of browsing around on there.

  3. June 22nd, 2009 at 10:01 | #3

    Pia!

    It will be ok. And it is coming into your life NOW when you ARE able to handle it. Not that it’s easy or pleasant. But your experiences of simplfying and recognizing the things that truly make you happy are what will buoy you through the maze of resolving this. And resolving it you will do!

    As weird and twisted as my next comment may seem, I hope it’s taken in the right spirit…

    this has blessed you with the opportunity to feel through what you need to feel through regarding your father’s passing.

    Yep, again, it’ll suck, it’ll be another painful layer (most likely the MOST painful layer) on an already stinging situation, but there is goodness and peace on the other side.

    And we’re here for you!

    I don’t have any advice regarding a good tax attorney/CPA, they ARE out there, and you have a good gut. Trust it.

    Love you! -Meg

  4. June 22nd, 2009 at 10:05 | #4

    That sounds stressful. I hope this comment helps stave off the baldness.

  5. June 22nd, 2009 at 11:54 | #5

    I am so sorry–do get help–as a consequence, I now feel better about the letter I received last week from the IRS, questioning one item that will, in the end, result in $70 more in taxes.

  6. June 24th, 2009 at 09:15 | #6

    Hey Pia!

    I’ve been offline for ages, but remembered from “ancient times” that you’d been planning a move to SC.

    Sounds like you’re happy out there.

    As far as the IRS thing…I don’t think you can get jailed for that (lol)…I too have had some financial nightmares that took awhile to straighten out (identity theft etc)so I know how traumatic it can be.

    But if it’s the IRS’s mistake, I’d say not to worry…for your own sanity try to get some closure asap by getting a good accountant (perhaps someone who is a former IRS professional who knows the ins and outs etc)

    Again, I feel for you…I’ve been thru a very bad nightmare the last year (or even two) which involved finances, and am just now getting the last of the loose ends cleared up.

    Considering the financial crisis (banks, etc) it doesn’t surprise me in the least that there would be a screw up…I think it’s partly a transition period which seems to be rapidly improving since Obama got elected (I was praying and praying for him to get in; I truly believe he may be the Messiah lol).

    Anyway, take care…this too shall pass!

    Best,
    Elvira

  7. June 30th, 2009 at 23:10 | #7

    They have bar mitzvahs in prison – why not blogging? Don’t know if you saw the Post article. Hope all your woes are sorted quickly, efficiently and most of all in your favor. I’ll write and if you’re in NY State prison, I’d visit.

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