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I’m spending money when I want to retreat and squirrel it away. The least the Amish people who are making my kitchen cabinets can do is have it on time, but no. The rest of the kitchen work depends on having the cabinets. I need my house. I have been living without my glass, other things, and furniture since a year ago last November. Oh my favorite clothes too.

I need to buy more furniture. This isn’t the fun experience it should have been. I resent so many people having such a great time in the 90′s and earlier this century and me saving, saving, saving–and now losing losing losing losing. Yes I feel good that I have enough to do this.

Of course I might find myself regretting what I wished for. i might never be able to leave home again

I feel as if every nerve in my body is on fire; sort of the feeling after a toothache. I walked to my house via the ocean. It was lovely. I took many pictures. I tried getting lost coming home but met a new (obviously) friend.