A month ago today, my cell, doubling as my alarm clock–it’s so multifaceted and talented–rang three times, at ten minute intervals. For the first time, I fell back to sleep and would have missed my plane, but there was a problem with the car the car service was sending. I woke up to find both my regular phone and my cell in my hands—can’t imagine the conversations I had.
Yes I was so excited by my vacation (or physically and emotionally exhausted) that I began cursing because I did make the plane.
So began a month where I was in various stages of sickness, surgery, and healing, all month.
I’m better now, but need a few days to get myself back on track. To where I don’t know, but back on track sounds good.
I loved my blog. Still do, though I haven’t been at my best recently. Maybe being in various stages of sick, trying to keep my life going, and my blog together are just a wee bit overwhelming.
Especially since I became involved in the formation of two team blogs that I never mention by name in my blog, but constantly plug anyway.
Haven’t been great at getting back to people outside of the members of said blogs, and a few others.
I will. But it might take some time.
When I began blogging I thought of it a fun way to practice writing.
Had no idea of the intrigue, the personalities, the way blogging becomes not just a writing obsession, but a skin need, and a community with all the good parts and the bad parts of real life.
It’s like playing the Sims but with real people, real fires, real killings–verbally, please. The buildings are still being refined, along with the community.
How do we communicate? With whom do we talk? Not talk to? Play nicely with? Grab toys from? Give toys to?
I would love to be in grad school, and doing a thesis on “Blogging as a Community.” Not–let me make this clear–as a substitute for real life–because nothing substitutes for real life–but it does take on all these real life dimensions of its own.
We can create persona’s, pretend to be people we aren’t. Or that’s the fear most people who don’t blog have.
I believe that peoples true personas tend to be exaggerated; the warts show more when a person blogs frequently.
I don’t see how a person could keep up a fake persona every day, but I tend to see the best in people, and have faith in inherent goodness.
That could be my best quality and my worst all in one.
I need to end my month of hell, and go restart my life.
The life that isn’t a Syms game.
The life in which I actually interact with people face-to-face, and not on computer or on the phone.
I’m about to push the re-start button and go into real life mode.
I wish me luck.
Because I’m me, I also give myself the right to clarify my posts and/or change my mind.
Real life is a good place to be, but I know what you mean about blogging becoming obsessive at times.
I just hope you don’t sign off forever, either here or at the other blog(s). Your thoughts and viewpoints are often refreshing.
You know, I hope you are feeling better!
As for me, I have just discovered blogging too. It is something I love and feel a need to do on a daily basis.. looking through people’s diaries, I call it.
For me, my life experiences are so much larger than life that people could easily think I made them all up. In fact my lover and I get into constant arguments when I tell her stuff I’ve done and she thinks I am making it up.
I tend to believe people until they give me reason to not believe them. It’s just easier that way.
Pia,
I find that staying away from the political or emotionally charged stuff for a while helps a lot. Then again, so does taking a few days off. Don’t feel like you “owe” us daily wisdom or anecdotes – we owe you our thanks for what you give!
Yes, it is “of the good” to recharge your batteries.
Pia,
No worries. Because this is your blog, you get to decide what happens with it. You will do well, becuase, it is your decision. Believe in yourself, recharge your batteries, come back refreshed. Regular fans will return and no doubt be as reinvigorated as you are.
Blog on Sister.
I wish you luck, but, in my opinion, you don’t need it. I know you will do totally fine in the real world.
As far as blogs go, I lean to what I like. I think the ones that are contrived do eventually stand out like a sore thumb. However, some are so fantastical that I read them because it is well written and imaginative and so unbelievable. However, the majority of the blogs I read are written by real people with real situations. It takes courage sometimes to write from the soul. I can appreciate that.
Enjoy feeling better and getting back to “real” life.
Sorry Pia, That is just UNACCEPTABLE!!!
You OWE us at least one post a day…
We are waiting!