I need to get this book finished. I have never wanted something so much. I’m beginning to lose focus and one thing I’ve always had when it came to writing or work in general was focus. I don’t want to be “she has NLD, so of course she can’t do it.” No I don’t want that at all.
Shayna did the graphic years ago. I would use it for my blog template as I love it but white writing on black–no! I’m thinking of getting cards made with the info on the back. Whenever I can’t do, I design cards. Kind of like a nervous tic
And when I don’t design cards I do home improvement. Constantly. Eldon, the contractor turned handyman turned house husband replaced some boards on the patio deck this morning. I looked at Darryl’s house next door and wondered why when he had his deck redone he used the same ancient boards–new ones would cost $400-$500 total; composite about a thousand. Too pricey for me but if my boards looked so bad nobody would want to set foot on the patio I would borrow from myself for the bazillionth time. (Our homes are called patio houses as they have large decks on the second floor; I love living in a beach cottage all year round)
I only wondered about Darryl’s boards because Darryl told me how much federal taxes he paid this year. Did I ask? Of course not. Were we discussing taxes or money or anything like that? Of course not. I like Darryl a lot. He’s my de facto attorney and has given me great legal advice. But in NY while money is the primary subject of conversation, next to real estate and schools, nobody ever says specific numbers except for real estate sales. Here people spout out numbers. Find that strange.
Next week the gate to my downstairs deck will be painted. Then I hope home improvement spring 2010 will be over. Though I welcome the distractions. But please, I need to work. Really work. I’m losing faith in myself and that’s always a bad thing.
Though I’m calm enough to lie down on a chaise and read. I’m never this calm. Never!! I hope calmness doesn’t equal lack of ambition.